Where I find peace.
After recently graduating, I find myself in a sticky situation, one that feels more sticky every day. I graduated 2 months ago ready to go after life, I armed myself with ambition, drive, hope and a feeling that I would overcome all odds to find a career that fulfilled my soul and served God as well. However, after watching several months pass me by, and no job offers, I am feeling a lack hope, ambition and above all else, peace. But how can I expect to find peace when I place my life in the hands of the current job market, the money in my bank account and my living situation.
If you know anything about my background, I am a person who “does.” In college I was a go getter. I became part of planning committees, then I ran planning committees, then I was on two committees, then I took an internship, then I took a job, then I took another job, and another job and another job, and then I lead a mission trip, and then I plan some parties… and you get the picture. This lifestyle kept me entirely satisfied and entirely too busy! Now that the dust has settled, now that my life is much more quiet, I am forced to look deep into my life and see where God needs to heal and break and reform and heal again.
I will find my peace in God, not in the things that change day to day…that I have no control over. God’s love pours out all over me even when I don’t deserve it, even in times where I walk the other way…this is my peace. God desires my heart and won’t stop until he has it and this is also my peace. Funny how I can get so caught up in me me me and how everything isn’t perfect for me me me, forgetting that the creator of the world and everything in it is on my side, no big deal.
Jim Palmer, author of Divine Nobodies and Wide open spaces wrote this…
” If you sow a life of dependency upon financial and career success as a source of identity, security, peace and fulfillment, then you will reap the volatility of these attachments deep in your soul.”
Deep in our souls, we can find a place that is like no other place. Deep in our souls we can find peace, a warm, protected place that cannot be touched or shaken by anything that the world throws our way. God has been walking beside still waters this whole time, and I basically decided to set up camp right underneath Hurricane Kathy, awesome. The beauty though, is that God is and always will be walking beside still waters. This brings me peace and pulls my soul to walk hand in hand with God near still waters.